Have you ever wondered why all the things that have happened to you have to happen ? Why? and the other "why" left unanswered.  I got myself wander to different questions but actually was root in the same matter, trying to solve everything by my human mind.  I was just thinking, how can i be in this point where it feels so hard to accept everything, even harder to thinking about :  - Trusting God,   - To surrender,   - And be hopeful about my future,  But He is a Good Father, who will help me to go through everything, even up until these days where i have to get to know myself more during social distancing and quarantine.  I discovered a lot about myself. Despite being happy and cheerful all the time, i am also the same woman who is kind of hopeless, overthinking, sad, and little bit clueless on how to processing my own emotion and feelings ?   To be honest, i was a little bit scared to accept and face this part of my self, because damn i l